Anabel González

A huge part of being a writer is the dreaded part of waiting and facing rejection. Waiting is hard but rejection is like a bullet to your heart.

When you start dreaming about being a writer you never think about the rough pad ahead of you, you only think about the fabulous life you’ll have being able to write all the wonderful worlds you have in your mind. And why not you also think that everyone will love it as much as you. But then you start the dream, you sit and realize writing wasn’t as easy, but you go through it the best you can so after several blood tears you have your wonderful creation in front of you.

Well maybe it’s not a wonderful creation but you have hope and send it away to find its way into the publishing world. So there’s when the wait begin. There start the constant refreshing of your email for several days until you realize it seems it will not come as fast as you thought.

Until one incredible day you receive the notification that says “You got Mail!!” and your heart stops for the torturous moments it takes for the email to open, in that second you have fear and hope. Until you read and your heart collapses to the ground were you think you will never be able to pick it up.

But the thing is we have to accept it’s a part of the road to take our stories out in the world, as Stanley Ellin says:

“No one put a gun to your head and ordered you to become a writer. One writes out of his own choice and must be prepared to take the rough spots along the road with a certain equanimity, though allowed some grinding of the teeth.”
—Stanley Ellin

After the rejection starts another process, the self-doubt, the idea of throwing everything away, the pain and the tears. But if this is what you love, what really moves you there, slowly filtering into the bad thoughts, will appear hope.

“Was I bitter? Absolutely. Hurt? You bet your sweet ass I was hurt. Who doesn’t feel a part of their heart break at rejection. You ask yourself every question you can think of, what, why, how come, and then your sadness turns to anger. That’s my favorite part. It drives me, feeds me, and makes one hell of a story.”
—Jennifer Salaiz

One thing I recommend and that had keep me going every time is having friends, writer friends, that understand, let you cry but then kick your butt and make you start again. Believe me I could never keep going without my friends and also my hubby.

Another quote on hope I love:

“If you do not hope, you will not find what is beyond your hopes.”
—St. Clement of Alexandra

At last here is what I wrote and felt after a rejection, this is totally and completely mine:

“Sometimes my brain and heart amaze me. They just got hit and I feel like crying but my brain is planning and my heart is hoping.”
—Anabel Gonzalez

Anabel González

I have to confess something: I have an addicition to books. I can't stop buying or reading them. Right now my kindle is loaded with 165 books unread, If I dint't had a kindle my house would go like this:

Also I have this little mania. I hate to read second books in a series until I have already the third or four or the last one in my kindle. I can't stand cliffhangers, I'm just too curious to wait. Yes I realize I write those clifhangers too. So when I get my hands on all those books I can read two in a day. I just can't stop.

Yes I really look like this! Crazy I know!

Don't make me start with someone interrupting me in a huge emotional scene:
This killing-anyone-who-talks to me energy surrounds me and I have to stop my urges, breathe deep and say: Yes? Although my mind is: don't you see I'm reading?

When reading as any other person I get to those moments when you want to throw the book, when you didn't expected what was going to happen but I always pick the book up because it's that good to call me back.

Yes sometimes I read as a writer and analyze the technique, the words, the writing but when the book is so good I forget about the writer me and become just a simple reader enjoying the magnificent world and characters that are taking my mind in this fantasy.

I'm crazy or it happens to more people?

PS: Yes I love gifs, I have a problem with them and I will try to reduce the number of them I use.

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Anabel González

Yes I have been afraid to admit this, afraid to even think I was really feeling it but I have to accept that I have come to hate GS.

It’s not that I don’t like GS or absolutely adore every character is that I have come to hate opening the file. I have gone through this MS like 15 times, a whole year, really I think if he could talk he would say Oh Gosh here she comes again!

I truly believe in my MS don’t get me wrong and I know that with each revision I have improved it a lot, but sometimes when I go to my files about to click it open once again, my brain is screaming not again!

For all you’re reading you might already deduced I’m going through GS again. Yes, I took a great course of Margie Lawson in deep editing and I want to apply it to GS. So once last time I have to go through it and then let it be.

Because I don't want to get to do this:

Over editing is a concern in my mind that’s why I’m editing at a slow pace, there’s a thin line between ready and over edited so I don’t want to go over it.

Have you ever felt like this with any of your projects?
Anabel González

I did it! I finished another manuscript, all the 75k words of it. The adrenaline and rush of finishing a new dtraft making me feel in heaven!

A heaven were he's celebrating with me, see how happy he is:

This new MS was special and hard for me. It's my first contemporary YA. At first when I had the idea I thought blah this will be easy

Ha! I was certainly wrong but after banging my head against walls, researching all I could, thinking for days, cry blood and go through a roller coaster of emotions, it's done!! So please forgive me if I leave with this guy. Maybe he wants to cook for me.

It's time for me to rest a little and enjoy the simple pleasures of life after the hard work. I deserve this:

See you soon!

PS: Stacey I had to post Ian Somerhalder today. I know you understand ;)
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